I just needed to share my perfect day after my previous blog about life getting me down. Monday I woke up said prayers and read my scripture first thing in the morning. Then I had the most healthy breakfast of eggs and toast and a banana (i know such a girl thing to list your food lol). After breakfast Braxton and I got ready to take him to the little dance class my friend is teaching for free. Although I knew I didn't have very much time I ran to the shoe store to see if I had purchased the right shoe size on my red shoes...I was happy to find out that I had. Since I had about 15 minutes I decided to hurry and run to get Kent and I some new garments. I returned just in time to pick up Braxton. Before returning home I stopped off at my friends house to use their treadmill. Ahhh it was the BEST workout. I sweat and worked my body well.
We hurried home in time to get Braxton some lunch and me a shower and then the babies came. No usually when the babies come my life gets difficult, but this day was like I said perfect! I laid the youngest down for her nap and the older of the two looked tired as she lay down on the floor. She doesn't like to be alone so she feels like you are punishing her when you try and put her to sleep so I had an idea. I turned on soft music, laid a blanket over her here in the front room and waited for her to fall asleep while I quietly did things with Braxton and ate lunch. She was out. YES!!! Two babies sleeping! Braxton and I then went in to clean up his room and then he helped me with the laundry. Of course because the babies we doing well the grandma came early which left us time to get a thing or two done before Kent came home.
To top the whole night off Kent decided we needed to go to a movie for family night. So we went to see The Princess and the Frog which was SO much fun to watch Braxton dance and enjoy the songs. As much as I enjoyed movies as a kid I have to say it is so much more fun to watch your kids enjoy a movie as a parent! In addition to all these wonderful things Monday the sun shone brightly. It may have been very cold due to the wind, but it was a beautiful day of sunshine and joy and I thank the Lord for granting me a much needed nearly perfect day!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
In Case You were Wondering...
*I posted this on my exercise blog and decided you all needed to know where my thought are too...
It seems that these days exercise is a luxury. I do however really enjoy it when I can get it in. Of course with that struggle to exercise comes the crappy eating...which brings on the weight gain...which get me more depressed...which makes my desire to exercise all the more difficult, however, I WILL NOT GIVE IN! I am fighting to get in any workout that I can. I know that it is my best defense against my depression, against my weight gain, against my cravings. I just know that the minute I allow those struggles to take over I will be admitting defeat to my adversary and that is just not good enough for me. I WILL keep my body healthy! I WILL keep my mind positive! I WILL overcome this trial that winter brings me. Truly while right now is a much more difficult time of year for me I can tell you that all the things I am doing to combat it are helping. I still have those hard days, but they are not as hard or depressing as they were last year. I still struggle to be happy, but I am still happier than I was last year. LOL As the Supreme's said, "I WILL SURVIVE!!!!" Keep checking up on me and remind me I can make it, because I KNOW I CAN!
It seems that these days exercise is a luxury. I do however really enjoy it when I can get it in. Of course with that struggle to exercise comes the crappy eating...which brings on the weight gain...which get me more depressed...which makes my desire to exercise all the more difficult, however, I WILL NOT GIVE IN! I am fighting to get in any workout that I can. I know that it is my best defense against my depression, against my weight gain, against my cravings. I just know that the minute I allow those struggles to take over I will be admitting defeat to my adversary and that is just not good enough for me. I WILL keep my body healthy! I WILL keep my mind positive! I WILL overcome this trial that winter brings me. Truly while right now is a much more difficult time of year for me I can tell you that all the things I am doing to combat it are helping. I still have those hard days, but they are not as hard or depressing as they were last year. I still struggle to be happy, but I am still happier than I was last year. LOL As the Supreme's said, "I WILL SURVIVE!!!!" Keep checking up on me and remind me I can make it, because I KNOW I CAN!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
I'd rather cross the plain with a handcart!
Not that anyone seems to read this anymore, but I thought I would document what is going on for my own benefit. My February Funk has hit. My mind is sufficating. I am again at that point where I am holding on by the skin of my teeth. I have tried to use a light therapy light which has helped a little. I had myself tested on my levels of Vitamin D (I was low. Like 21 and 32 to 100 is normal) and was prescribed a high dose of Vitamin D. I took it on Saturday morning and don't feel much different. The part that is most frusterating is that I am not just lying down and taking it and acting as if I can do nothing. No! I am fighting to have a sound mind every day, but I find myself upset over the smallest of things. I find myself blaming Kent for more than his share. I find myself struggling to push those negative thoughts out of my head, but they seem to attack me from all sides. When I get outside and exercise I do notice it helps, but so much of my brain is fighting that desire and making me want to lay in bed and (or sit in the house) and do nothing. I feel inside like I am paddling for all I am worth in the water and every time I see something to grab a hold of I feel like it's a false hope. I hate feeling this way, but I am so thankful to know that I only have to hold on until spring hits. Once the sun comes back I know that my mind will go back to normal like it always does. I just keep holding on hoping I can make it through one more day as I get closer to the spring.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Feb1st-Feb 7th
*7 Services Weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...6 of 7 days
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...4 of 7 days
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...6 of 7 days (a couple of days it was only a verse or two so room to improve next week)
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...2 of 7 (getting better)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...6 of 7 days
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...4 of 7 days
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...6 of 7 days (a couple of days it was only a verse or two so room to improve next week)
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...2 of 7 (getting better)
Goals for 25th-31st
WEEKLY ACCOMPLISHMENTS
*7 Services Weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...3 out of 7
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...4 out of 7
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...4 out of 7
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...1 of 7 (TINY bit better)
Visit Teach Monthly
...3 out of 6 for January
*7 Services Weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...3 out of 7
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...4 out of 7
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...4 out of 7
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...1 of 7 (TINY bit better)
Visit Teach Monthly
...3 out of 6 for January
Monday, February 1, 2010
Gratitude, Blessings & Service Rendered in January
Sun 31 *I am thankful for wonderful friends who came to eat and play games with us. I enjoyed making dinner for my friends and family.
Sat 30 *What a wonderfully busy day. I was grateful to host a baby shower for my friend Jill at my house. I was also grateful for the gratitude of all her friends thanking me for having it at my house. I was also blessed to be able to attend my Aunt Jeanette's 70th birthday celebration. My service was all the work that went into preparing for Jill's shower.
Fri 29 *I am thankful for answered prayers & that I was able to help Gordon & Holly by watching the boys while Gordon had his eye surgery. My service was also my gratitude.
Thurs 28 *I am thankful for a busy day full of service and the time I have to offer all that service. My many services today included watching my friend Melanie's little boy, watching a neighbors 3 kids while she packed the house to move, then running and getting some things from the store for a sick neighbor as well as picking up her kids from daycare, then watching another neighbors two girls while she took her boy to the Dr. to fix a broken bone.
Wed 27 *I am thankful for a good attitude and mental outlook when my efforts to have a party only resulted in two people in attendance. It's nice to be ok with things not turing out as I had planned. I know that the Lord will still help me reach my goals. My service today was everything I did to offer a fun party and great products to all my friends.
Tue 26 *I was blessed with being able to make a fantastic batch of bread because I forgot to set the timer. It made me realize that prehaps I have been overcooking my bread. I am also thankful I was able to finish reading my book tonight and I am thankful for the lessons about the atonement that it taught me. My service today was making a great batch of bread for my family while watching the Biggest Loser.
Mon 25 *Today the Lord blessed me with beautiful warm sunshine, a great, but quick run, and wonderful family time. We practiced that song we are learning in Primary and Braxton wanted to hold the pictures like we do in primary. It was cute. I was able to serve Angie by allowing her to drop the babies off early today.
Sun 24 *I am thankful for a wonderful husband who was happy that I went out and got a walk in the sunshine instead of staying home and getting him a birthday dinner. I sure do love his understanding and love for me. My service was inviting my friend to get out of the house and take a walk with me.
Sat 23 *Today I am thankful for a wonderful husband who thought it would be fun to go up to Park City and find some sun for me...unfortunately the storm was there too. lol I sure appreciate him thinking of me and my needs! For my service today I dug in my heels and got the dishes done that I didn't want to do so that Kent wouldn't have to do them.
Fri 22 *I am thankful that Kent was able to help his brother and sister-in-law out today and that they were able to return to Meadow safely. My service was allowing Kent to go take care of them and meet me at the gymnastics meet later instead of being selfish and mad that the plans were changing.
Thur 21 *I am thankful for great health care from a wonderful midwife. I don't know what I would do without her. For my service today I agreed to have less of my own time by allowing Angie to drop the babies off early.
Wed 20 *I have been blessed to get in another great 3 mile + workout in the great outdoors with quality clean air. Today I not only took the time to drive Danielle to her Dr. appointment Kent and I also drove to Orem and Provo to pick up matresses for our new neighbors kids.
Tue 19 *Today I was blessed to get a nice 30 minutes of running in because I was able to get more slime to repair my stroller tires. I think even Braxton enjoyed the outdoor time. Danielle called and asked me to take her to the Dr. office and I took her and waited for her to finish so I could give her a ride home as well.
Mon 18 *I am thankful for a morning where I woke up before the sun @ 7:30 and still wanted to get out of bed and start my day because I felt so good. I am also thankful for a therapy light that seems to be helping me. Today I was able to do quite a bit of service. I scraped the walks at the church and I watched kids for a neighbor who helped another neighbor with a ride to the store.
Sun 17 *I am thankful for the wonderful spirit of stake conference and for the personal revelations available to those who attend those meetings. I am always amazed that when I get outside of myself and work on my visiting teaching that I always seem to find it blesses me as much as it does them. I'm also thankful for the opportunity to feed the missionaries.
Sat 16 *I never understood how attached I was to the sun until today when driving up towards Park City I found it above the inversion and it literally brought tears to my eyes because I needed it so much!!! I am so thankful for the sun and all the life it gives to this world. I am also thankful for it's symbolic nature as it turns us toward the son of God whose light we also depend on. My service was small today, but I hope still greatly appreciated. I took the time tonight to invite my neighbor to stake conference tomorrow.
Fri 15 *I am thankful for a wonderful night out with Kent to the gymnastics meet. I am also thankful for the opportunity to help my new neighbor move in and also for the opportunity to watch a neighbors kids while she went out running which gave me a chance to go out running as well.
Thur 14 *I am thankful for the blessing of exercise and I am thankful that I have learned how important it is in my mental and physical health. Today my service was to help a friend out with an uncomfortable situation.
Wed 13 *Today I am thankful for the beautiful sun and better air quality. I am also thankful for the transportation I have at my fingertips. Whether I need to run somewhere quickly in my car or take my time on foot I am thankful for the ability to get where I need to go. My service today was taking a woman I know from church up to the U to a doctors appointment.
Tue 12 *I am thankful for emails that come and tell me when to shop. I am excited to finally have some warm snow pants from Eddie Bauer for playing in the snow. I am also thankful that I decided to wait and see if they went on sale even more even if I didn't get my absolute favorite color. Today my service was also my thriftiness in glueing Braxton's sole back on his boot.
Mon 11 *I have been amply blessed to have found a group of friends who genuinely enjoys the company of one another. It has been such a blessing to have good friend who bring enjoyment into my life. I am thankful for a great night playing games with them tonight. As a service today I was able to give Braxton a much needed hair cut and I feel that I did an OK job. I hope to touch it up tomorrow. I am also thankful for skills that save me money.
Sun 10 *I am thankful for a good nap that seemed to be needed today. I was able to be of service by picking up the small chairs at the end of Primary today. I love that Braxton saw two that I missed and helped me out. He's such a great helper.
Sat 9 *I am thankful for my new Discovery Toys business. It has been a step in the right direction and I really enjoy it. I am thankful for the opportunity to lead the music at Jaidyn's baptism tonight. There was a beautiful spirit there.
Fri 8 *I feel so blessed to have had a nice free date tonight with Kent. Hot tub and massages are a great date. As hard as it was to give up my time off I was able to help out and watch the babies when their mom/aunt was in a crunch.
Thur 7 *I am so grateful that my friend Jill called and asked if Braxton wanted to go the the McDonald's playland with her and Baylee. It was nice to have him out of my hair so I could get some things done today. I served my son today by helping him with a blow out in his pull-up when I was tired of the daily tasks.
Wed 6 *I am so thankful Braxton has been able to join the speech class. I can already see where his speech has improved because of it. Today I served my family by going grocery shopping and being careful to stay within a budget.
Tue 5 *What a blessing for my friend Melanie to call up and ask me to go to Ikea with her. I really needed something to get me out of the house. I am thankful for the blessing on serving Braxton at 4:00 am as he awoke from a bad dream. It truly is a blessing to be able to comfort him.
Mon 4 *I am thankful I was able to spend the day with my brother today. I am also glad to have been able to make some bread for him to take to school as well as some for my family.
Sun 3 *I am thankful for the help of the Lord in our lives. Kent was able to help out a man in the ward who is looking for a job who in turn is trying to pull some strings of his own to help Kent get into school.
Sat 2 *I am thankful to be at Kent's sisters house eating so much better than I have been. It doesn't take long for me to miss the way I feel when I eat right.
Fri 1 *I am thankful for a great day exploring the possibilities of technology with Kent's brother-in-law Kevin.
Sat 30 *What a wonderfully busy day. I was grateful to host a baby shower for my friend Jill at my house. I was also grateful for the gratitude of all her friends thanking me for having it at my house. I was also blessed to be able to attend my Aunt Jeanette's 70th birthday celebration. My service was all the work that went into preparing for Jill's shower.
Fri 29 *I am thankful for answered prayers & that I was able to help Gordon & Holly by watching the boys while Gordon had his eye surgery. My service was also my gratitude.
Thurs 28 *I am thankful for a busy day full of service and the time I have to offer all that service. My many services today included watching my friend Melanie's little boy, watching a neighbors 3 kids while she packed the house to move, then running and getting some things from the store for a sick neighbor as well as picking up her kids from daycare, then watching another neighbors two girls while she took her boy to the Dr. to fix a broken bone.
Wed 27 *I am thankful for a good attitude and mental outlook when my efforts to have a party only resulted in two people in attendance. It's nice to be ok with things not turing out as I had planned. I know that the Lord will still help me reach my goals. My service today was everything I did to offer a fun party and great products to all my friends.
Tue 26 *I was blessed with being able to make a fantastic batch of bread because I forgot to set the timer. It made me realize that prehaps I have been overcooking my bread. I am also thankful I was able to finish reading my book tonight and I am thankful for the lessons about the atonement that it taught me. My service today was making a great batch of bread for my family while watching the Biggest Loser.
Mon 25 *Today the Lord blessed me with beautiful warm sunshine, a great, but quick run, and wonderful family time. We practiced that song we are learning in Primary and Braxton wanted to hold the pictures like we do in primary. It was cute. I was able to serve Angie by allowing her to drop the babies off early today.
Sun 24 *I am thankful for a wonderful husband who was happy that I went out and got a walk in the sunshine instead of staying home and getting him a birthday dinner. I sure do love his understanding and love for me. My service was inviting my friend to get out of the house and take a walk with me.
Sat 23 *Today I am thankful for a wonderful husband who thought it would be fun to go up to Park City and find some sun for me...unfortunately the storm was there too. lol I sure appreciate him thinking of me and my needs! For my service today I dug in my heels and got the dishes done that I didn't want to do so that Kent wouldn't have to do them.
Fri 22 *I am thankful that Kent was able to help his brother and sister-in-law out today and that they were able to return to Meadow safely. My service was allowing Kent to go take care of them and meet me at the gymnastics meet later instead of being selfish and mad that the plans were changing.
Thur 21 *I am thankful for great health care from a wonderful midwife. I don't know what I would do without her. For my service today I agreed to have less of my own time by allowing Angie to drop the babies off early.
Wed 20 *I have been blessed to get in another great 3 mile + workout in the great outdoors with quality clean air. Today I not only took the time to drive Danielle to her Dr. appointment Kent and I also drove to Orem and Provo to pick up matresses for our new neighbors kids.
Tue 19 *Today I was blessed to get a nice 30 minutes of running in because I was able to get more slime to repair my stroller tires. I think even Braxton enjoyed the outdoor time. Danielle called and asked me to take her to the Dr. office and I took her and waited for her to finish so I could give her a ride home as well.
Mon 18 *I am thankful for a morning where I woke up before the sun @ 7:30 and still wanted to get out of bed and start my day because I felt so good. I am also thankful for a therapy light that seems to be helping me. Today I was able to do quite a bit of service. I scraped the walks at the church and I watched kids for a neighbor who helped another neighbor with a ride to the store.
Sun 17 *I am thankful for the wonderful spirit of stake conference and for the personal revelations available to those who attend those meetings. I am always amazed that when I get outside of myself and work on my visiting teaching that I always seem to find it blesses me as much as it does them. I'm also thankful for the opportunity to feed the missionaries.
Sat 16 *I never understood how attached I was to the sun until today when driving up towards Park City I found it above the inversion and it literally brought tears to my eyes because I needed it so much!!! I am so thankful for the sun and all the life it gives to this world. I am also thankful for it's symbolic nature as it turns us toward the son of God whose light we also depend on. My service was small today, but I hope still greatly appreciated. I took the time tonight to invite my neighbor to stake conference tomorrow.
Fri 15 *I am thankful for a wonderful night out with Kent to the gymnastics meet. I am also thankful for the opportunity to help my new neighbor move in and also for the opportunity to watch a neighbors kids while she went out running which gave me a chance to go out running as well.
Thur 14 *I am thankful for the blessing of exercise and I am thankful that I have learned how important it is in my mental and physical health. Today my service was to help a friend out with an uncomfortable situation.
Wed 13 *Today I am thankful for the beautiful sun and better air quality. I am also thankful for the transportation I have at my fingertips. Whether I need to run somewhere quickly in my car or take my time on foot I am thankful for the ability to get where I need to go. My service today was taking a woman I know from church up to the U to a doctors appointment.
Tue 12 *I am thankful for emails that come and tell me when to shop. I am excited to finally have some warm snow pants from Eddie Bauer for playing in the snow. I am also thankful that I decided to wait and see if they went on sale even more even if I didn't get my absolute favorite color. Today my service was also my thriftiness in glueing Braxton's sole back on his boot.
Mon 11 *I have been amply blessed to have found a group of friends who genuinely enjoys the company of one another. It has been such a blessing to have good friend who bring enjoyment into my life. I am thankful for a great night playing games with them tonight. As a service today I was able to give Braxton a much needed hair cut and I feel that I did an OK job. I hope to touch it up tomorrow. I am also thankful for skills that save me money.
Sun 10 *I am thankful for a good nap that seemed to be needed today. I was able to be of service by picking up the small chairs at the end of Primary today. I love that Braxton saw two that I missed and helped me out. He's such a great helper.
Sat 9 *I am thankful for my new Discovery Toys business. It has been a step in the right direction and I really enjoy it. I am thankful for the opportunity to lead the music at Jaidyn's baptism tonight. There was a beautiful spirit there.
Fri 8 *I feel so blessed to have had a nice free date tonight with Kent. Hot tub and massages are a great date. As hard as it was to give up my time off I was able to help out and watch the babies when their mom/aunt was in a crunch.
Thur 7 *I am so grateful that my friend Jill called and asked if Braxton wanted to go the the McDonald's playland with her and Baylee. It was nice to have him out of my hair so I could get some things done today. I served my son today by helping him with a blow out in his pull-up when I was tired of the daily tasks.
Wed 6 *I am so thankful Braxton has been able to join the speech class. I can already see where his speech has improved because of it. Today I served my family by going grocery shopping and being careful to stay within a budget.
Tue 5 *What a blessing for my friend Melanie to call up and ask me to go to Ikea with her. I really needed something to get me out of the house. I am thankful for the blessing on serving Braxton at 4:00 am as he awoke from a bad dream. It truly is a blessing to be able to comfort him.
Mon 4 *I am thankful I was able to spend the day with my brother today. I am also glad to have been able to make some bread for him to take to school as well as some for my family.
Sun 3 *I am thankful for the help of the Lord in our lives. Kent was able to help out a man in the ward who is looking for a job who in turn is trying to pull some strings of his own to help Kent get into school.
Sat 2 *I am thankful to be at Kent's sisters house eating so much better than I have been. It doesn't take long for me to miss the way I feel when I eat right.
Fri 1 *I am thankful for a great day exploring the possibilities of technology with Kent's brother-in-law Kevin.
Week of January 18th-24th
*7 Services Weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...5 out of 7
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...5 out of 7
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...7 out of 7
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...0 of 7 (not so good at all this week.)
*7 gratitudes weekly (record in gratitude journal)
*Spend 15 Minutes 5 times a Week Outdoors
...5 out of 7
*95% daily prayer (6+ days a week)
...5 out of 7
*95% daily scripture study (6+ days a week)
...7 out of 7
*Track finances 7 times a week.
...0 of 7 (not so good at all this week.)
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