There have been two times in my life that I have surely suffered through depression. The first time was when I had my heart broken and the second was after Braxton was born and I suffered from postpartum depression. There are other times in my life when I question if I should have been on a medication. Depression actually does run on both sides of my family so I am very aware now of my moods and whether or not they are healthy or out of control. In my patriarchal blessing it warns me of allowing myself to get depressed or discouraged. All this talk leads me to my thoughts about the roller coaster of emotions that seem to be going on the last little bit.
Today I woke up with a happy boy and we played and I thought of all the things I was going to get accomplished today and I was feeling really good. Then the plans had to change and it sent me into a very sad and irritable state. I started to get lonely and texted Kent and told him that I missed him a lot! He sent back a text saying "I love you" and I teared up. It was exactly what I needed.
I have noticed a tendency as an adult for me to get a little down when the days get shorter and the sun isn't out as much. One of my doctors actually suggested to me the possibly of doing some sort of light therapy. I don't know what this entails or how it works, but I may ask my current health care provider about it if this roller coaster of emotions continues too much longer. Right now I actually think that most of this can just be chalked up to holiday stress. I need to get my butt in gear and start exercising so I can deal better with it. I also need to eat right and get good sleep. I can't believe the difference this can make as I have experimented with it in the last few years. That and I need to work on being postitive and be sure to have positive self thinking!
2 comments:
marlies i know how you feel! after the divorce i had mild depression, but it sure didn't feel mild to me! working out and eating right does wonders, but being on medication does more (in my experience). i think it's great you're looking out for yourself and taking care of things because it does affect everyone around you. good luck!
Hey you know you can call me if your feeling down. You are strong and will push through this...it just seems like it's impossible sometimes. It's a hard time you are going through right now and I don't think would be easy for anyone so I think it's normal to have ups and downs as much as you have considering what you have and are dealing with. Stay strong and keep up the things you know to be right.
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