The Ten Virgins

For the last few years I have wanted to read the entire conference ensign before the next conference and it looks like this time I may accomplish that goal. I have read every article with the exception of two articles from the priesthood session of conference. I have really focused the last two weeks on finishing up this goal. As I have read there is one friend in particular who is struggling at this point in her life and we talk about the gospel a lot. A while back I read a talk that I thought she would enjoy and I printed it out and gave it to her. The other day I asked her about it and she said she hadn't read it. This brings me to the parable of the ten virgins.

As I read these talks I want so much to share each and every talk and word with those I love and care about. I have shared a few things with some, but I now realize why it is that we can't share our oil. I could tell you what I learned about the talks. I could make copies of each and every talk that I read that would apply to someone I know, but I can't sit you down and read the article to you and have you be uplifted or even care about the talk. Now matter how I would like to share my oil with you I can not. No matter who you are, Kent, Braxton, my family, my friend, my neighbor, no one.

I look also at all those years that I have slacked off on constantly filling my oil. It doesn't matter if everyone around me reads scriptures, talks by the prophets, prays, etc. My oil can only be filled by me. I can only learn what I have to by reading and searching the scriptures myself. I am amazed as I have tried to strengthen myself that I have missed out on so much for so long. I pray that I don't allow my oil to get so low again. I am not perfect in my scripture study, but I know that I am much better off now than I have been in the past and I hope to only get better and better as I work to fill my lamp with the necessary life saving oil that it needs.