On January 2nd, 1995 my life changed and I have had a longing in my heart ever since. It's been 13 years that I have lived without my cherished grandmother Erna Rogers Holdaway. Next year I will have lived half my life without her. My younger brothers and sister barely remember her if at all. My husband and my children will never know her and I will spend a large portion of my life being affected deeply by the life she lived. I have been struggling through life the last little bit and so I have been relying heavily on my savior to take care of me and my family. Today in my struggle I turned on the TV and flipped to the BYU channel.
There was a devotional on as usual. It was something I needed to hear. I won't go too much into the talk so if you are interested in reading it here is the link. It was a talk by Mary Ellen Edmunds entitled, "It's About Time." She talked about using our time wisely and near the end of her talk she asked what you would be willing to give up to spend time with someone who has passed from this life. I immediately thought of my grandma. The answer for me...ANYTHING! I would give up all my money, all my possesions, I would give up a clean house, I would give up so much. Sister Edmunds then challenged, "Let's spend time now doing the things and saying the things that matter most..." As I was crying thinking of how I miss my beloved grandma a thought popped into my mind. Is there someone here on this earth that I would give up the same things for if they would be gone tomorrow? Then why not now? Why don't I give up those things and spent the time I have with the one's I want to spend that time with the most?
So this year I am making that sacrifice to spend more time with friends and family. My friends and family are the most important people in my life and I am going to make an added effort to show that that statement is true. When it is all said and done what are we going to wish we had done? I guarantee that I am not going to wish that my house had been cleaner. I am not really going to wish that I had made more money. If my house is always clean and I made a lot of money I will probably wish that I had spent more time with my friends and family so my goal is to hopefully live my life so that when I leave I have no regrets! I love all of you and look forward to the good times we will spend together this coming year. Thanks for being a part of my life!
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