Small Miracles

When a flying insect comes into your home they often long for the rays of the sun. You will find them sitting in the window as if trying to get back to the outside. If that insect will but shift their focus to a doorway instead they would find unlimited freedom and the outside world they desire. We too are like that insect in so many ways. 

I feel like lately I have been banging my head on a window trying to figure out how to make it to the outside world. Last week my Father in Heaven answered my prayers in the miraculous ways he has before. It seems like many times we wish He would just break the window but instead he showed me where the door was. It is such a simple answer that far too often we don't see it as a miracle, but to me it was as much a miracle as changing water into wine. 

Wednesday morning I had prayed for my Father in Heaven to help me feel love for my husband and to remember why I married him. As I drove to the splash pad to spend time with my friends I saw a guy riding a motorcycle. Upon seeing him my first thought was wow that guy looks tough (not tough like a biker, more strong like a hard worker). Just as soon as that thought had finished a new thought jumped in my mind. "Man Kent would look so good a bike...I love my husband. He is so handsome and strong." How easy would it have been for me to continue thinking about the bike rider or the other cars or some other focal point yet my mind was turned to the wonderful man I had married. As I continued down the road the radio songs seemed to remind me of how I love my husband as well. For me it was a small miracle. I shared this with my friend at the splash pad and she shared with me some of the information she had read about the needs of men and woman and how they are different. She helped me to see so other doors that could help me be a better wife and ask for the things I need from my husband. 

That night I had some other information brought to light by my Father in Heaven. Information that helped me to understand some of the struggles I have gone through in another family relationship. It empowered me and I felt like my soul had become amazingly light. I shared this information with my husband and thought this would be one of those moments we would connect in a way I felt I need to connect with him, but it wasn't. My husband was very tired and could not keep his eyes opened. I sent him to bed and felt discouraged, unloved, and unimportant. It was hard. 

The next day felt even harder because I was carrying that pain from the day before. I knew there were things that needed to get done, but again I found myself pounding my head against a window wondering how to make it outside. I couldn't figure it out. As I was heading home from the grocery store I my Father in Heaven again show me where the door was. It as a text from a dear sister-in-law who had finally read a discouraged email I had written to her a few weeks earlier and she was responding just at the time I needed it. 

Her text read, "Hey...u knock it off. You have work to do! We all need you, especially that beautiful family of yours and don't you doubt it for one second. You are an amazing strong righteous woman and that means plain and simple Satan wants YOU! Never forget that. I think that's just as important to remember as the knowledge that God LOVES us, Satan wants us to fail as much as God wants us to succeed and so he will NEVER stop messing with us, especially those that are trying! Don't let him trick you, he's so smart. He knows U don't have the typical weaknesses so he is trying to use YOU against YOU...its called self doubt. I love you and I'm reminding you right now of how wonderful you are how needed you are how much we rely on your sweet spirit in our family. I know I couldn't have made it without you and your wisdom many times. I'm so lucky to have you for a SISTER:) Love Love Love U."

After reading that text I was in tears. My heart shifted from being hurt and upset about things again to me realizing I needed to turn to my husband with my hurt and my problems and let him know my pain so he could help me to heal it. He has been helping me through this and I appreciate his love and his help as well as his humility and his kindness. I am so thankful that my Father in Heaven was willing to send me the small miracles that I needed. I pray that he will continue to do so and I pray even more that I will always be willing to see when I am blessed with those miracles. It's amazing what a small change in perspective can do to change a life. It's true that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass! Alma 37:6-7