Back to Life as a Mother!

Today there is much to be done and I am sure it would be good if I could get it all done, but for now the to-do list is going to wait. The bread can wait to be made, the law can wait to be mowed and all those other items can be done later as well. Right now I need to take a moment to reflect on being better. The last two days I have been having a pity party. Poor me who has to endure the long hours my husband works. I probably won't see him again until October. Wahhh wahhhhh! Yes, please call me the wambulance.

Then this morning after my kindergartner went to school I hopped on Facebook while eating breakfast and saw an article about motherhood. I read it while my baby kept trying to get my attention and when I completed it I was inspired by the article to get down and play with him. I forget how therapeutic hearing a little boys laugh can be. We played hide and seek and I jumped out to get him and heard the most delighted giggle. I don't do that nearly often enough. I know I don't.

In the middle of all this play I was texting a friend and we were talking about motherhood. We conversed about how we should cherish every moment because they grow up fast. As my friend had made that statement I thought of my beautiful sister-in-law Holly who continues to battle a disease that challenges her daily life and fights her for her very life. I realized that even if kids did not grow up fast we truly have no idea how long we'll be blessed to raise these children. Even though I sometimes feel like chop liver when it comes to my boys the thought of not being here to teach them all I can makes me sad. The idea of them not having a mom breaks my heart. My baby not remembering me and not knowing how much I love him pains me.

I'm not sorry to say that the pity party is over. It is time to get to work on those things that need to be done. No more feeling sorry for myself because time is valuable. There is fun to be had, laughing, dancing, and singing to do, and in between some work to get done. There is no more time to feel sorry for myself. It is time to eat my fruits and vegetables, make a more concerted effort to get my workouts in, drink plenty of water and start living life as it was meant to be lived because as Gordon B. Hinckley said, "Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured."