I find myself stuck in a world of woe is me instead of truly enjoying my pregnancy and I need to get it out so I can start being strong in my mind & body. The first one is that I have been more sick this pregnancy. I tried the half a Unisom a night and Vitamin B6, but that didn't seem to help. I tried the ginger and felt it was another waste of money. There have been a few things I have found for some momentary relief. #1 is lemon drops, #2 is chewing gum, & #3 was Gatorade. Luckily I have been starting to feel less nauseated so that makes me feel better, but it is still difficult to find my energy and get back on track with all the responsibilities in my life. I feel like all I can expect of myself is to keep treading water.
The ailment that I am really struggling with the most (and one I struggled with when pregnant with Braxton) is acne. I feel like the ugliest pregnant woman alive. I see all these other women who have cute little bellies, beautiful "glowing" skin, and seem to only have a "baby bump" to prove their pregnancy and I wanna cry. Of course other women have husbands who think pregnancy is beautiful...for them it is. For me I feel like pregnancy is hideous. In a matter of months I grew back a butt the size of Texas, I've grown two baby bumps (one the baby & one the fat belly above the baby), & I have more red dots on my face than I ever had as a teenager. While make-up may cover it up it sure doesn't hide it completely. So when I think of all the women who love pregnancy I struggle to understand how they can, but realize that if I wasn't sick, huge, and polka-dotted maybe I would enjoy it more also.
While I am not a woman who enjoys this phase of life I do want to clarify one thing, I don't detest pregnancy entirely. I love feeling that movement inside my body. I love the experience of childbirth and look forward to the triumph of having another natural childbirth experience. I just struggle to enjoy the little joys above the difficulties that I myself experience. I guess that will be the challenge I will extend to myself through this pregnancy. I need to remember to enjoy the little things that lead up to bringing another child into our home.
I have been doing some research about how I can combat the pregnancy acne problem. Hopefully I can post some great successes so that when I take my first pictures with my new baby I can see truly see the beauty within myself. Please help me by asking me how I am doing on keeping up with my skin and my diet. I want to overcome these challenges and not allow myself to feel down at such an exciting time in my life. Thanks for your support!
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My face was HORRIBLE my entire pregnancy with Hyrum, and when he was born, it got WORSE! It literally exploded when I delivered. I ended up going to a dermatologist for the first time in my life. Good luck!
Hang in there Marlies! Hopefully the sickness passes with time. I wish I had some good advice for you on the acne. :( Not fun! Pregnancy definatly brings on unpleasant side effects. But it's so worth it. Just do the best you can right now.
Their may be some hope!! I have to say that I struggled for the first 4 months of pregnancy with acne as well. Honestly I felt just as you did, the good news is that I cleared up during my second trimester and did not have it the rest of my pregnancy. I think the glowing part comes during the second trimester. Hold on...you have barely cleared the first trimester and I have hope that you on your way to feeling beautiful and glowing in the very short future! On a side note...You are beautiful and you have one of the most beautiful spirits I have ever come across...and that alone makes you beautiful inside and out zits or no zits, prego or no prego!! Keep on going...and if you find cure for that prevents from getting acne in the first trimester from whacked out hormones, then I am want to be the first to know!
I don't like being pregnant at all...we'd have 10 kids if being pregnant wasn't part of the deal. Between the severe morning sickness, anti quagulate shots in my belly, bedrest & all the other not so fun pregnancy woe's, it was a HUGE challenge for me. We feel very blessed to have our 2 beautiful little girls considering we've been pregnant 4 times that we know of. Good luck, I will keep you in my thoughts & in my prayers.
"Motherhood is not what was leftover after our Father blessed his sons with the priesthood ordination. It was the most ennobling endowment He could give His daughters, a sacred trust that gave women an unparalled role in helping His children keep their second estate. As President J. Rueben Clark Jr. declared, motherhood is "as divinely called, as eternally important in its place as the Priesthood itself."
-Sheri L. Dew, "Are We Not All Mothers?" , Ensign, Nov 2001, 96
Congratulations Marlies!!! I'm so excited for you! I wish I had some advice for the acne woes. When I used to work in cosmetics we would use green concealer under foundation to cancel out the red on acne if that helps. Products with aloe vera will help reduce redness in the face too. I've been thinking about you alot. Do you want to get together for lunch sometime soon?
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