A week ago I was in a spell of negative thoughts. They sounded like this...
'You don't matter.'
'What you do doesn't make a difference.'
'Nobody even listens to you.'
One week later I am so angry that I gave even a moment let alone a whole day of my life giving any measure of truth to those thoughts. I thought my problems were big and important. I talked with a friend who reminded me to count my blessings and let go of my worries. That evening I sat in the home of my local representative of the state house. This is what I heard...
Your efforts matter.
This is how we win an election.
It's through your efforts.
Thank you for your efforts.
This is how we make a difference.
I needed that message and I was so thankful to hear that I do make a difference.
I wish my friend had been sitting with me. I wish she had been there fighting for something she believed in. I'd even be happy if she'd been sitting in his opponent's house fighting for him. Perhaps she would have heard that her voice mattered and that she mattered. Perhaps she would still be here today fighting those voices that say that she doesn't matter. She's not. She's gone. Yesterday she lost her battle with those demons who didn't want her to do her good here on this earth. I wish she could have found a little more fight deep down. I miss her. I wish yesterday that we would have flooded her Facebook with the stories of love and acceptance that are flooding her Facebook today. I don't know if it would have saved her, but I wish we could have tried.
From now on when those negative voices start in on me I am going to remember what they are capable of. I am going to stop them in their tracks. They are not allowed to lie to me anymore. I am going to fight for my right to live. I am done with giving them a place in my mind. I am done with believing that I have no value just because I struggle to see it at the moment.
This world needs me!
This world needs you too!
Friend please fight with me. Fight for your right to be a force for good in this world. Believe me when I say that the world needs us both. We all need each other! I love you friend.
Tia, my dear friend, you will be missed more than you know!
