Sunday, May 30, 2010

Memorial Day Traditions

As everyone has been making their plans for Memorial Day weekend I felt a little left out because I had no where to go, no barbecue's to attend, no special activities in mind for the long weekend. This morning I awoke from a dream that reminded me why Memorial Day has never been a time to get away from home for me. I dreamed that this beautiful and adoring woman was still alive and part of me wanted to go back to sleep and dream the dream again.

Every year on Memorial Day my mom would ask us who wanted to go with her, grandma and grandpa to place flowers on the graves of those who had passes on. I don't recall a year passing where I didn't want to go spend that time with Grandma Holdaway. I will forever be thankful to my mom & grandmother for setting that example for me. I truly feel blessed to have been influenced by such beautiful women in my life.

Ross Thrower & Erna Rogers Holdaway

It's sad for me to think that my children will never know the great people I called grandparents. I love my grandparents more and more as time goes on. Hopefully someday these few words will remind my children that they are amazing people just because of the amazing forebarers they come from.

Grandpa Holdaway was a tall man whose heart outstretched his size. His middle name was Thrower after his mothers maiden name and grandma liked to call him Ross "T" and say that the T stood for tease because he was a big tease. He had the biggest grin as he would tease too. Grandpa was a hard working dairy farmer who was usually busy doing one thing or another. He loved tending his enormous garden after he sold his cows & this was often where you'd find him. His two favorite hobbies that he enjoyed with grandma were playing card games (especially Rook), and fishing at Strawberry Reservoir. Grandpa had a fantastic singing voice and even sang with the barbershop quartet. He loved and adored my grandma & set wonderful example of how to be a husband, father, grandfather & priesthood leader. I am thankful for the legacy he has left me.

I have always wanted to be like my Grandma Holdaway. Erna Rogers was born in Snowflake, Arizona and moved to the Provo area when she was in high school. She had amazing musical skills and played piano and cello in high school. Grandma loved sewing, quilting, singing, cooking and family. She was a woman of so very many skills. She had a way of making each and every one of her grandchildren feel like they were the most special child to her. She loved to serve others. She loved to have her family gathered around her. Every family party was spectacular. She cooked so much of the food and sad to say often times took all the time cooking and still got stuck with the clean up. I never her her complain, however. She loved to create opportunities for her family to be together and enjoy each other. There is not one cousin, aunt or uncle who doesn't enjoy reminiscing about how much fun our family parties were because of the many hours she put in to make it great. I miss her dearly as well as those special memories she created for her family.

Ivan Dustin & Wilma Naomi Gibson Kunz

Grandpa Kunz was one of the hardest working men I knew. Because he was always working I didn't make much time as a child to get to know what an outstanding man he really was. I have been thankful as an adult to learn about him more through my Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, and writings by my grandma. Grandpa was a rather quiet man. I'm not sure if that is because he had a very talkative wife or if he just had a quiet disposition. He was quite the handy man. Even as a young man there is a story of him taking the wheels off of a baby buggy as a younger sibling slept. One of my best memories of grandpa was when they come to visit us in Oregon and grandpa was going nuts wanting a project to do as he couldn't sit for long. Finally my mom put him to work building shelves for her food storage in the garage and he was happy. That actually encompasses quite a bit of who he was. He worked as a young man to help provide for his parents family and as a father he worked very hard to provide for his own family. He is a wonderful man whose example I am truly thankful for.

Grandma Kunz was a woman I only recently learned to appreciate, but I am grateful to say that there are things I have learned about her that have helped me grow to love her. I am also very grateful to her for the histories she wrote so that I could learn more about her and my grandpa. My grandma was a woman who loved to chat. She often times would call my mom in Oregon just to visit on the phone after everyone here had gone to bed. From reading her biography she really enjoyed raising her children. She was a very spiritually inclined woman. She & grandpa were always helping others when they could. Grandpa & Grandma never had a lot of money, but they did a great job of making do with what they had.

This Memorial I am thankful for the sacrifices of those who have gone before me and set wonderful examples. I hope that I can pass on these great examples to my posterity & set as good of an example for them.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

True Fortunes

About a month back or so Kent, Braxton and I went to Panda Express for dinner. I think that the fortune cookie stuffers were wise beyond their cookie packing abilities because my fortune said...

A WISH WILL BE GRANTED AFTER A LONG DELAY

How in the world did they know I was pregnant? Talk about smart cookie!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Pregnancy Ailments

I find myself stuck in a world of woe is me instead of truly enjoying my pregnancy and I need to get it out so I can start being strong in my mind & body. The first one is that I have been more sick this pregnancy. I tried the half a Unisom a night and Vitamin B6, but that didn't seem to help. I tried the ginger and felt it was another waste of money. There have been a few things I have found for some momentary relief. #1 is lemon drops, #2 is chewing gum, & #3 was Gatorade. Luckily I have been starting to feel less nauseated so that makes me feel better, but it is still difficult to find my energy and get back on track with all the responsibilities in my life. I feel like all I can expect of myself is to keep treading water.

The ailment that I am really struggling with the most (and one I struggled with when pregnant with Braxton) is acne. I feel like the ugliest pregnant woman alive. I see all these other women who have cute little bellies, beautiful "glowing" skin, and seem to only have a "baby bump" to prove their pregnancy and I wanna cry. Of course other women have husbands who think pregnancy is beautiful...for them it is. For me I feel like pregnancy is hideous. In a matter of months I grew back a butt the size of Texas, I've grown two baby bumps (one the baby & one the fat belly above the baby), & I have more red dots on my face than I ever had as a teenager. While make-up may cover it up it sure doesn't hide it completely. So when I think of all the women who love pregnancy I struggle to understand how they can, but realize that if I wasn't sick, huge, and polka-dotted maybe I would enjoy it more also.

While I am not a woman who enjoys this phase of life I do want to clarify one thing, I don't detest pregnancy entirely. I love feeling that movement inside my body. I love the experience of childbirth and look forward to the triumph of having another natural childbirth experience. I just struggle to enjoy the little joys above the difficulties that I myself experience. I guess that will be the challenge I will extend to myself through this pregnancy. I need to remember to enjoy the little things that lead up to bringing another child into our home.

I have been doing some research about how I can combat the pregnancy acne problem. Hopefully I can post some great successes so that when I take my first pictures with my new baby I can see truly see the beauty within myself. Please help me by asking me how I am doing on keeping up with my skin and my diet. I want to overcome these challenges and not allow myself to feel down at such an exciting time in my life. Thanks for your support!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Be Careful What You Read...

This book was lent to me by a friend whom I had told about my frustrations in achieving pregnancy. I started reading this book the end of January/first of February and I have really enjoyed all of the knowledge it has given me about my body.

Taking Charge of Your Fertility: The Definitive Guide to Natural Birth Control, Pregnancy Achievement, and Reproductive Health, by Toni Weschler in Books


The best part about reading this book is the result it gave me...the breathing product will arrive around Thanksgiving! Ready or not it's coming... :)

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Man in a Uniform

Tonight as I hung Kent's new work clothes up I was reminded of how great looking I think he is in a uniform. He has picked up a second job to fill in his hours and is now delivering ice to grocery stores and gas stations for Summit Ice. In case you didn't understand before I think he is quite a handsome devil in his work clothes. They are quite the change from his dirty construction clothes he usually comes home in. His uniform consists of a pair of blue slacks with cargo pockets, a blue shirt with a company patch on one side and Kent's name on the other.

When I think of the days I used to work at the gas station back in college I recall those guys who I saw regularly and how many of them I would flirt with. I'm pretty dang sure that if Kent was one of those vendors who came into my gas station frequently I would have been sure to flirt with him. He's such a great catch and I am reminded often these days of how lucky I am that Kent picked me to spend eternity with! I am a lucky one!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Gratitude, Blessings & Service Rendered in March

  • Tue 2 *I am thankful for a wonderful afternoon with my good friend Tia. It is so much fun to spend time with her and learn from her fitness expertise! My service today was staying just a little longer than I had planned to make sure her son was calmed down.

  • Mon 1 *I am thankful for a great walk inspired by my husband. It is so nice to have him confide in me. I feel priviledged to have earned his trust. My service today was working on getting the house clean to show Kent my love for him.